CHANGE: The thing we want MOST, is the thing we HATE.

I’ve recently written a lot about how averse to change we humans are, and why. Change of any kind feels destabilizing for a little while (it has to, or everything stays the same). But if you’ve grown up feeling a fierce determination to create as much stability, security and safety for yourself (‘cause there was none to be had in childhood), welcome to My world.

As I was hauling my ab-roller off a tall shelf in my garage this morning, this post was inspired. I’m the kinda dame who’ll try anything once, to see if it alters my reality just one tiny bit, in a positive way. I live my life within the principle that if I can make itsy-bitsy changes that might enhance it even infinitesimally, it’s a victory!

I’ve been struggling with a stiff, painful back every morning as I pry myself out of bed, and have been cogitating on different interventions that may bring healthy, permanent relief. Yoga is one I’ve been considering, but apparently even online videos for relieving back pain haven’t found their way into my Experimentation Box as yet (can ya relate?). I’ve always said, ya can’t be ready, until you’re READY. I honor this unreadiness in myself, so there isn’t as much resistance to trying something new, when I can finally get up for that party.

This ab-roller of mine (if I can stand to use the damned thing without it causing too much pain), may help me strengthen my core abdominal muscles, which could in turn help support my back~ at least, this is my ‘working theory’ at present. I’ve had this equipment since the time ab-rollers were first introduced~ so ya know how attached I am to my “maybe I’ll wanna use this again, someday’s.” (And no, I’m not a hoarder or pack-rat, in case you’re wondering.)

Honestly, I have no idea this ancient thing is gonna help with my back pain, but I’m gonna try it, with the hope it can. Yes, I’m coming at this problem thru the ‘back door’ so to speak, but my instincts and intuition have always been stellar, and I’m routinely thrilled I listened to ‘em.

What you’re reading here, is the story of how I’ve orchestrated my path in this lifetime. Don’t ask me how~ ‘cause nobody ever taught me how to do this stuff. I’ve merely experimented with change, which has meant throwing ideas and concepts up to the ceiling, and noticing which ones stuck. The ones that did, I kept utilizing as effective strategies for better living and loving. The ones that didn’t stick, I simply moved on from and never thought about again. I’ve used this approach throughout my entire healing practice, as well.

This is not rocket science, folks! For me, it’s simply been a logical and practical way to navigate my way along, with the least amount of pain and greatest sense of payoff I could muster. Slowly but surely, I advanced and my life got a bit easier and better with each passing year.

What’s kinda fascinating to me about all this is, I have no regrets. I utilized as much sound and circumspect judgement as I had available to me at any given time, which resulted in my arriving HERE. I never re-investigate decisions or choices I made in the past and use them against myself. If I got a less than positive outcome, I tried to learn what not to do, next time around. Nobody’s ever learned anything, by getting it right.

Hence, I completely eradicated self-flagellation many years ago when I finally came outta the ether and realized how injurious it was to my psyche, my emotional and physical body, and my sense of worth. No good ever comes of this shit we do to ourselves! Every time you whack yourself in the head with a virtual baseball bat, you are causing emotional, psychological and physiological harm to your Self and your innocent little child’s spirit. In short, you are perpetuating your parent’s cruelty to you.

Stopping self-abuse (of any kind) is the true meaning of human development, which leads us to harmonious, life-affirming evolution. Gracious, what might it feel like to start falling in love with yourself, rather than shaming, guilting and criticizing yourself 24/7?

We tacitly accept that as one ages, they become infirm, sickly, crippled, and dependent on all sorts of pharmaceutical concoctions. We have integrated this type of outcome as TRUTH, because our observance of these repetitive occurrences in the elderly are commonplace! Many of us, without our conscious awareness, have embraced this faulty notion as, “it’s normal.” These outcomes are directly due to one mentally beating up on themselves for decades. Our body consciousness constantly ‘hears’ these abuses and interprets them to mean, we have a Death Wish. It then goes about fulfilling our desire~ for that which we focus on, is that which we create.

What’s true for the bulk of humanity, is we’re headed toward a human abattoir, yet we accept it as dogmatically as we accept that the sun’s gonna rise every morning! But just because mainstream thought asserts that certain truths are inalienable, does this automatically make them valid beyond the shadow of a doubt??

I’ve always told my clients, “baby steps will get ya wherever ya wanna go.” Baby steps don’t tend to bump up against our resistance and rebellious zones like New Year’s resolutions do (and when have you ever stuck with any of those ya made?!). Baby Steps can be our little ‘experiments’ to see if we feel just a tiny bit different or better, after we muster the courage we need to try ‘em (for better or worse).

I’ll let ya know how the ab-roller experiment works out. This endeavor may turn out to be a dismal failure, or it might help a little with this back crap. Either way, I figure it’s at least worth a try. Stay tuned, stay well, and try and muster a little gratitude today, if you awakened this morning with no pain in your body. :~)

God bless you all. I hope this essay has felt meaningful to you, and if it has and ya wanna share it with those you love, I’d welcome you to spread the word.