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Connecting The Dots's avatar

Great musings!!

To answer that Titled question - "Maybe not, but I'd like the chance to prove myself wrong, just once."

I laughed about the "less savory" income methods and your higher road - I had similar thoughts in my early 20's - on the male side of things - and my limiting factor was "My grandmother can see me from heaven and what an embarrassment I'd be, as she and God looked down and saw me".

Oh how that thought has kept my rear-end on a straighter and narrower path, than it would happily run down, if left to it's own limitations.

When my mom passes away, I think I'm going to have to become a priest or a monk - which is the less embarrassing one again???

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

Some developmental stages seem universal. :~) I thoroughly relish and embrace my darker aspects, and find them to be a brilliant counterbalance to my 'light' ones. As I often explain to my clients; just like chickens, we have both light parts and dark... and which ones tend to be juicier? The trick in life, is learning radical self acceptance, and rejoicing in all our dimensions that make us whole humans (not partial ones).

I love your humor! I'd advise experimenting with being yourself BEFORE Mom dies, 'cause it feels truly delightful, but requires a considerable amount of practice to get good at.

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Connecting The Dots's avatar

Ha…I will say that I have no doubt that Granny was left explaining to a sideways glancing God that, “he’s a good boy…that was not what he thought it was…you’ll see that was just a one time thing…it was that jezebel that made him…”.

And yes we do have the light and dark, that we should understand, embrace and then balance.

You can imagine my surprise, when a Seinfeld episode stole the perfect porn star name, I’d been considering - “Buck Naked” - Damn you George Costanza!!

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Glyn Davis's avatar

You’re never boring so to hear your internal struggles wouldn’t be either. I am in a creative job though my enthusiasm for it has waned , entertaining is pressure but I don’t want to let go of what I do well but finding time for other things is becoming hard. You’re a unique person. I’m blessed to have come across you. Thanks for being you.

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

Segues are healthy. The world isn't black or white (except for Borderlines). Transitioning into new arenas can (and should) be gradual. I've done it a few times during the course of my life. We don't have to leave one part of us behind, in order to adopt new facets and dimensions.

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

You always manage to write the kindest, most validating comments, Glyn. Thank you! We oughta try and chat one of these days. I'd like that very much. Sometimes two heads are better than one. I believe we are always growing and changing, so it's virtually impossible to do the same thing decade after decade, and be stimulated and gratified by it.

In my experience, it's a bit too easy for most folks to pigeonhole themselves professionally, which leads to stagnation and discontent. Call anytime, 626 676-6239 and maybe we can discover how to get ya excited again. :~)

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Glyn Davis's avatar

Hi

I didn’t see this reply sorry, yes would be great to chat

Thanks

Glyn

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Glyn Davis's avatar

I’ve been renovating house and so busy so I missed your reply, and not even given myself time to read all the wisdom you put out there. Hope you’re doing ok after all the crap that happened to you.

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

Thanks, Glyn. Doing better than EVER, miraculously enough!!!

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Glyn Davis's avatar

Accepting what you can’t change is a great mindset and not dwelling on what’s gone. All credit to you. I’m so pleased to hear you’re better than ever!! Look forward to hearing about it when we chat

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Sheila Toby's avatar

You clearly have a gift. Thank you for sharing that with the rest of us!:)

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

Thank you, and you’re welcome, Sheila!!!

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JamesDuff's avatar

Never had a millions dollars in bank. Maybe next life.

Would think that would feel very solid. I grew up with kids who had everything, 2 of them suicided. Not certain money is everything, certain it changes people. Thanks for sharing your love of writing, I feel the same way. I have to write. With full time job I write sarcastic remarks on others post. Someday will write more.

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

Money doesn’t always change people. It depends a lot on how solid their inner foundation is, in the first place and whether they have a nourishing relationship bond with themselves. I have a secret about having millions, which I will share at a later date. Stay tuned… I think it’ll be a fascinating post. :~)

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

I think you have good stuff inside ya, James. Maybe it’s just a matter of You realizing that good stuff’s worth reading. :~)

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Ken Barber's avatar

Maybe not. I remember Tammy Fay Bakker in tears on TV, crying as their empire was crumbling, “I don’t know what we’re going to do. We’re down to our last hundred thousand dollars!”

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Shari Schreiber MA's avatar

LOL… priceless!

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Brian Pinchback's avatar

A basic tenet of Buddhism is that everything in life changes - even the universe itself is evolving through time. We have to learn to adapt and what you describe illustrates that perfectly.

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